FUTURE. is it coming TOO soon??!

Posted by charonimous


argh.

everything is going too fast.

way over the speed limit.



shucks.

bigla na lang...




what course?

first choice or second choice?

which campus?

which school?

which is better?

which is the BEST?

what is required?

what do i need to do?

will this fit me?

how do i handle this course?




ARGH.

then.

after every panic. hysteria. doubt. uncertainty.

it'll just boil down to one question.




WILL I MAKE IT??





the future IS coming too soon. (or have we just overlooked the signs to warn us of its coming?hayhay. that i don't know.)just today, we were all as usuall, cramming tO submit our upcat forms. some of my classmates were changing courses last minute, changing campuses, encouraging others about a certain campus or course, suddenly a discouragement will emerge, exemptions tackled, quotas identified, course difficulty, blahblah..ENOUGH!




waaa.in short.pressure is building and stress has succesfully found its way up upon the spine of every battered graduating esep student. again. not to mention added pressure by teachers' expectations.shucks.
what are we to do?
the future is soo soooon to come and yet are we still dwelling in the past?or are we afraid to lose the present we so got used to already?
shucks!
nako.naku.naq.
what else is left to do?
don't tel me that you, too
don't have a single clue!
hay.
p.s.
Our present state is what we WERE. So the future is actually, starting NOW.
:)
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SENIORITIS!

Posted by charonimous
3 words can sum up everything that our heavy hearts carry.


SENIORS NA KAMI.
shucks.
i can't believe it. we have grown along with time. some may have grown ahead of it, some lagging behind,but we can't deny the fact that we have grown. this may sound so exhaustedly used na but it was just like YESTERDAY when i was still so excited to wear a green skirt, rather than a blue one. when it wasn't a pain in the neck for my mom to buy me the most expensive and cute (and childish) looking notebook in the whole wide (and wild) world!when i still don't have to iron my own uniform, wear the colorful nametags...and soooo much more.
hayhay.
it's even faster than the speed of light. (what a lame comparison but can't think of anything na. my emotions are now getting to me again!argh.)
anyway, so it was like when we were still "littlelings" when we were so excited and anxious to grow up that we start to wear more mature clothes and look more childish as a result! and now that we really have grown, we feel we still have all the time in the world, but before we know it..SENIORS NA TAYO.
hayhayhay.
but what does that mean?
allow me to enumerate.
1. non- innocence: actually, this is both an advantageous and a disadvantageous thing. the advantage? seniors, don't deny the fact that our minds are now way open to a lot of things about life. we can now understand and have first hand experiences with the things that has yet not even found its way into the highly guarded minds of the little ones.admit it.now!haha.anyway, the disadvantage? WE ARE NOW UTTERLY RESPONSIBLE FOR ALL THE STUFF WE GET OURSELVES INTO!We can no longer get ourselves off the hook with the highly strategic teary eyed look and walk away with a lolipop to suck. We are now a step away from adulthood and it's about time we learn the essence of responsibility.
2. SUPERIORITY : WOOOH! let's face it. now that we are Seniors. we totally rock man!haha.(conceit..haha.maybe feel good moment naman!) since we are the seniors, we are the most k nowledgeable, the most mature, experienced, we are the standards man!haha. We are the gurus of high school life. we are ahead of the lower years! OR SO WE THINK. this maybe a good thing to hear but in fact, this is the source of pressure. WE ARE EXPECTED TO DO EVERTYTHING IF NOT EXCELLENTLY, PERFECTLY (ESP.ESEP STUDENTS).
WAAAAH. pressure won't kill you. it'll make you numb.
shucks.
3. ATES and KUYAs : (sobs) we can no longer excuse ourselves from being called with an ate/kuya. let's just face it. with great wisdom..comes great..titles??
wuhuhu..haha.actually theres nothing to sob about? so what if we get called with ate' kuya? its cute. haha.
argh. i hate writing obout stuff like this. about stuff that matters to me alot. this actually isn't about being a senior, but NOT being as senior. but it turned out this way. what can i do? my heart is speaking now. all i can do is follow. argh.
p.s.
If you have some mire suggestions, feel free to comment.
"Sweet childish days, that were as long, As twenty days are now. "
- William Wordsworth
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jakamaawatan?!

Posted by charonimous
*taiwanese song*


a brand new epidemic. a disease with an unkonwn cause. a widespread histeria of chinky eyed long haired singers/dancers/drugs that are enough to bring, even the toughest female being, head over heels.



presenting...(drum roll please)..




the invasion of the taiwanese boybands!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!woooh!


i love you chun!!!



hahaha.ok enough now.


just the other day, i asked my friend pia, to print some things (both of high priority to me as of the time) for me. its was, ofcourse, a document about our research proposal and, er, LYRICS OF the TAIWANESE songs of my dearly - beloved boyband fahrenheit!*blush*


as of my writing of this, i can't recall how a girl(?) like me feel such a craze over this overly lame(who said that it's LAME?!?!) and "corny" foreign BOYBAND. Take note: its a boyband! They are these people prone to making pa-cute faces infront of the camera while singing and dancing to the tune of their songs!



waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!gracious!



still, i can't blame myself. I certainly am not alone. Even the people, who i thought would never even take time off to take notice of this agaw ecsenas (namely, ivz and chis) shAre with me ( well not actually the obsession and all) the APPRECIATION over their nakakalokang kagwapuhan!!!hahahah.,,chariiiing!


WOOOH!anyway..from what planet were they even from! I even bring with me the copy of the lyrics everywhere i go so that i will be able to MEMORIZE THE SONGS!shucks. I AM going mad.hahaha.


How can they drive completely sane(?) people like me into deep and serious addiction over them. They are after all still human beings for the simple fact that they too may die someday. They do eat, drink, poop, pee, puke, cry, laugh and fart like any other "normal" human being in existence do!

i honestly don't have a clue.


kakaloka lng tlg.

hay.


my playlist is even filled with taiwnaese songs i can't relate to but still bother to utter even some sarawudan words of xi jiu shen watevah!haha.,.



the point is, it's simply magic that they exist.so such.



haha. oh no!im again transforming into the Wu-chun-addictedly-obsessed-girl-trying-hard-to-get-more-info-cyber-stalker-type-fanatic!before that CoMPLETELY takes place....



......i rest my case!





p.s.



Zi yao zai ni shen bian!

xe xe xe xe xe ni ai wo!


(watevah that means)



:)
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The yesterday i forgot,

Posted by charonimous
Shucks. How can i forget to write about the 110th independence day of the Philippines?! I have always been getting A's in patriotism and love for the country!(wah???) but i still managed to erase it from my system. Gracious! Have i gone mad?!Is the earth gonna explode into oblivion?!noooooooooooooooooo! I haven't even finioshed memorizing the taiwannese lyrics of my favorite song!ay.haha.
Anyway, before we get into an out of this world topic, let us reminisce the feeling of being a free nation!weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!*happiness*
Now that we have succesfully reminisced the past, let us contemplate.(waw, anu to, guide to succesfully celebrating the independence day?!haha)
well, i have read that one of the reforms that the Propaganda (of Rizal, Jaena, Del pilar, etc) was pushing was to make the PHILIPPINES a PROVINCE of SPAIN. Sooooo if i'm not mistaken, and unless i'm going nuts, they never really hoped for independence of the nation, they were just fighting for the MERE FAIRNESS in the treatment between the mestisos and the agtas (awch!), in which the percentage of it being realized is next to impossible!hay!
i know, who am i to talk to our heroes, to the very reason why i myslelf breathe and is able to write something right now? i actually am no more than a concerned patriot, but in a sense i'm also a treasonous (?) filipino. How do i say this. Uhm. I am grateful for these who have risked their everything for the land of the free, but, (i sometimes get carried away into the world of skepticism,maybe by influence of the things i read), i think that they do not ENTIRELY DESERVE the "rewards" and "appreciation" and "credit" they receive nowadays. There are a lot more unsung heroes, who may not have been and may never be known to us and the future generation.
do you know that it was Aguinaldo who holds the record of the first ever election anomaly?
for what was the "acta de tejeros?"
do you know that it was aguinaldo's men who suspectedly assasinated Antonio Luna because of his rising popularity which may sooner or later exceed Aguinaldos?
and i know you do know what kind of Man Jose Rizal was.
Are you now starting to turn against them, because of the things i mentioned above??
DON'T.
Coz then again. Im just a no one in this world and they are already somebodys who have stood the test of not only time but also of deteriorators.
They are people worthy of EMULATION not because they are HOLY but because even if they have their flaws, in the end they chose to stAnd for what is right!!!
right?
IF a while ago, you were starting to change your mind, don't. stand for what you believe in coz in the end, it may still be the proper thing!
:)
p.s.
Happy 110th indepence day.
Freedom is not about liberty of infinity. But the finite liberty.
"There is nothing greater than being loved, but LOVING."
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I'm no Runner!!!:(

Posted by charonimous
I'm NOT running away from RESPONSIBILITIES. I'm setting PRIORITIES.
Everyone was aking WHY I didn't do the things they thought i would have done. Everyone was wondering wadahek was wrong with me. shucks. it is tiring to hear all the questioning, but it's way exhausting to think of the answers!esp when you don't have any!gracious!
nakaka...ewan!hmp!
Today I think views (on me) have really got out of hand. I wanna cry!
Choosing not to do something does NOT always mean that you don't want to do it or that you want to run away from whatever it may bring upon your shoulders. It does not at all paint the picture of your being. No! It does not!argh!
Now i don't know what i'm going to say.calm down.breathe.aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah...
Life, as we all know, is full of DIVERGING roads. You may choose to go east, or west, right or left, forward or backward. It's your life, your decision, your being; and your future depends on your OWN. You lead your OWN life. When one does choose to traverse the path OTHERS may not expect of him, DOES THAT MEAN HE'S WEAK?Does that mean he's no longer worthy of things due him if he had only taken the road OTHERS may have thought he ought to take?

NO
Human beings live a life with interconnections to one another. But we do not live the lives of others! We are merely and just a PART of it. shucks naman! I won't explain n nga! here it goes!
Please do not JUDGE people with how they appear to be. Because more often than always, things are not what they seem to be! People take different paths to walk, different sceneries to paint and have darn unique ways to express themselves. Though a person cannot meet what you EXPECT OF HIM, that doesn't mean that he's a no good being. Do not jump into conclusions on the motives of his action. He lives a life of his own! He does not breathe and eat and drink and dead face the challenges of everyday living in this chaotic world to live YOUR DREAM, nor to dance your music nor to live the life YOU want for him! This may be the thing you think is good for him, but he himself knows it is not.SO learn to trust. and LET GO.
haaaaaay..so..
I don't run. I chase.
I don't hide. I seek.
I don't cry. I write.
p.s.
I know I disappointed you. But for now all you need to know is I don't feel any regret. I know you care for me. I still love you.:)(:
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LAST first day.

Posted by charonimous
Mitch Albom once said that its good to begin with endings. that unknowingly, endings ARE the beginnings.and beginnings are ALWAYS blissful anf light.

i DO believe him. but as of today, i start to question.

today is the day when again i will see the faces of my old friends. woo. first day high has always been something students look forward too. you know. not only wil you get to see your old friends, mega evaded enemies, and long awaited crushes, but also you get to flaunt your new and unBINYAGed school stuff!bwahahaha!


but seriously, today was DIFFERENT.

ITS OUR LAST FIRST DAY.

i know.supermegahyper drama factor to.haha. but i cant explain how i felt when for the first time our adviser called us..."IV-EINSTEIN!"


I WAS LIKE..WHAT?!?IV-EINSTEIN?!?!YESTERDAY I WAS just in III-DALTON?!WHAT DID I MISS?!"


haha.oa ryt?but true.


and i wasnt the only one who felt that. everyone did. maybe i was the only one showy enough to let it affect my system but wadahek, i am an einstein after all.haha. to be great is to be misunderstood. (beat that!)


anyway, so i was soooooo bothered that i ended up puring out all of my not much unkempt emotions on my nth blog.wee. i feel so light na.wooh!


to all the seniors out there, and to me, to all soon to be seniors:


you may or may nothave felt what i have felt a few hours ago...but one things for sure...your new shoes have been baptised the minute you walked in the room!haha!





p.s.(piece of my soul)



Its good to begin with endings. Unknowingly, endings ARE the beginnings. and beginnings are ALWAYS blissful and light.


i guess it still got me.
:)
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