chArONIMOUS

Since God is god and God is wise, he decided to breathe into existence two types of being – the first one he called the leader and the other he called the follower. He posed that they go forth, multiply and fill the world with their kind. And so they did. The leader took off first, and the follower simply followed…


I was still a raw 11-year old when I first tasted the glory of a school election campaign. And I was also eleven when my misfortune came in the form of defeat. Yes, I considered myself popular then since I was the campus figure but defeat met me and shook my hand…and my world gradually. I was undignified, not because I lost, but because I lost in an unjust war. I fought fair but they fought dirty. In short, I lost the election and the drive that once floundered in my veins.


Or so I thought…


A year later I again found myself standing in front of high school freshies talking my way into having my name in their vote lists. The enthusiasm hadn’t left me after all; it just sat still in my heart and waited for another knock. But fate itself was tricky enough to feed me my second defeat. That was it, I thought. I was not meant to be a leader and I will never be one. I was only meant to realize this detrimental truth sooner or later.


A child’s heart wasn’t designed to carry a mature burden such as that. It was only structured to cry over an aching tooth or a balloon that flew into the outer space. My childish heart was childishly weeping for not a childish motive. So I dropped every tiny-weensy idea of having to run again for position and I just continued to focus on my academic work. I thought that the more I get busy, the more I get to forget the throbbing pain of having to be denied twice in a row. I locked my decisions into no longer laying even a single finger at leadership organizations and stuff like that. I subconsciously made the decision to simply be the follower.


What for? I am going to be defeated anyways.


So my sophomore year was utterly peaceful that I forgot my self-pity-inducing experience the year before, and the year before that. But that was only until the near-end of the school year. Before the year officially ended, the invisible string that I thought had detached from me was AGAIN pulling me toward the path to running for the Supreme Student Organization of our school. I grabbed the opportunity.

And that was the decision that changed my perception of life, my being. I realized that in everything and everyone, there will come a time, they’ll all grow tired. I grew tired of losing, failing and being defeated. Funny, defeat it self, gave up on me that time.


…The leader lead and the follower lagged behind. He stood and simply watched the leader do things, all for the first time since the earth was as fresh as their flesh. Leader ordered, follower followed. The leader lead, the follower followed well.


All of these happened in the past years of my colorful high school life. In fact, I am no longer an officer of the highest organization of our school. However, during my reign as the vice- president I was exposed to things I never would have encountered if I had chickened out at the last minute and failed myself more than anyone else. The experience was not only about having the position but actually learning to lead properly and by heart. I used to be the follower. But I grew tired of simply following when I knew all along I could lead, with the help of course of my experiences in when I was still a follower.


I had also defied my being having been tested many a time by failures and rejections of the thing that I really aspired for. Maybe, if I had never taken the risk once more, and let myself be bogged down by the chain of letdowns I have experienced, I never would have been me -the Charo that I am today.


The leader grew tired of leading, but the follower didn’t. He instead started to initiate and asked for the cooperation of the leader. The leader asked why, so the follower said…


“It is not that a good leader is a good follower, it’s just that he knows how to be a follower so he truly understands the essence of leading and becoming a great leader.”


And I found myself saying…”Yes, I had been the follower. And now is my time to lead.”








i made this sometime ago.,can't remember..just happened to stumble to it.,





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