chArONIMOUS

The looks, the feel, the features...everything! He had everything that i was looking for in a life-long partner. The sleek design, the inviting color...yes!I've finally found my partner in life. Everyone deserves to love and be loved right? And my lover and love, came in the instant i was looking for one.

I need to have him. I WANT HIM.

and as a matter of fact, seducing him was a no-sweat toil. I got him as easy. With a couple of bucks...he was mine..all mine!!Buwhahaha!!Wrapping him tight around my fingers for the first time felt good. Slowly running my fingers across his body exhilirated me. Touching every inch of him was heaven for me. Oh gosh, euphoria was all over me.

I never imagined that love felt like this. I was too young back then for that kind of sensation but i proved to my whimpering emotions that i have grown. I was already a lady, and he was my man. Together, we are one.(rhyming?!haha.)Who was i to know what's right?What's wrong?How to deal with a love so strong?? Nonetheless, i liked the feeling and i never wanted to shoo it away. NO, i'm gonna stay in heaven as long as i want to. Stay as long as forever with him.

And that was what i did.

Day and night, we were together. Inseparable as the smile in an innocent child. I enjoyed his company, and i know he too enjoys mine. He was loyal, faithful. He did everything i ever wanted him to do, with no complains, just wholehearted service for his adored lady - ME!

He was my lover, my love but also my friend. He was there for me when i needed him. And when i cry tears that silently crashed into my secretive pillows, he was there. Not to stop me from crying, but to just have my company.

Then one day, something unexpected happend. It was his misfortune and i wasnt able to help in time! He bled, got wounded, but he got hurt a lot to realize that i was not there when he needed me. I mean...i was there!I was!..but..but..i was too late. He already fell and i wasnt able to wrap him into my caring arms. It was my time to repay him, but i utterly dissapointed him.

Starting that day we went separate ways. He would no longer do what i wished him to do. No matter how i beg, got down on my knees, kissed his feet. NO! He was hard on me. And i was hard on myself too. The relationship was now a disaster.

Now, i'm trying hard to regain the friendship we once shared. Hope against hope, we can get back and pick up pieces from where we have left them.

p.s.

Love is as complex as spreading peanut butter on your tasty bread, you try to even out everything. Well, you simply can't.