Of Einsteins in the great white

Posted by charonimous


i admit. i am a certified drama queen, esp kanina. but i'll bet my life in saying that sooner or later you'll be joining me in my mourning crusade,haha. MARK MY WORD COUNTRYMEN! Mark my wooooord!And when that time comes, you shall realize the worth of my anthology.hahaha.




anyway, as i was trying to juggle around notebooks and upcat reviewers earlier, frivolous things forced itself into my already mixed up mind and poof!i ended up studying/hallucinating the scenario 8 months from now, as we walk in the aisle in great white. and yes i'm talking about graduating. Actually, it was funny that at that time hell i cared if i was going to pass the upcat or not. cheesy, was the text i sent but it was all my heart could pump. haha. basta!




i believe graduating never really is an easy task. i mean if it takes a million efforts and guts to make friends with someone and get acquainted with him for the first time, how much more if the episode is you trying to put a stop into the everyday life you established with people (people you now consider family) for FOUR YEARS. yes countrymen, don't expect me to act this way if the bond was only like a 15- minute fling! But for crying out loud, four years is like forever, considering the fact that we students spend darn humungous time in school than at home!haha!(dagitun man ako)




haha. but seriously, they even say friendship is the highest form of love. Nevermind your boyfriends or girlfriends! the love you share with friends is far greater than any other kind of love (except for the love of God of course).




this year, i have to say, is such a wonderful one. why? because i can now see the worth of everything and ever single person in the four conrners of our no-longer-so-deteriorated-beautified-by-our-creative-hands-room. I now appreciate their deeds, their corny jokes, their umtimingly punch-lines, their flaws, shortcomings (including mine), and how they make up for their imperfections. Though i have also met face to face this year my greatest test, i still consider this the year of genuine love.




I love the IV-Einsteins, we do love each other. From the factions, to the unity; from the quabbles, to the creative discussions; from the games, to more games; from the smiles to the laughters; from the tears, to tears of joy; from freshmen years, till eternity.


:P


so uhm. My dear four einsteins..till we meet again!


(this is a sooooooo anticipated post!)





p.s.


Its not that we have never liked or loved less other classmates before, its just that its only now that we realized how much we truly love each other. NOW THAT WE ARE NEARLY AT THE PEAK OF THE END.








:(


:)


:O


:D


XD
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FAKING IT.

Posted by charonimous
The easiest to do actually is to FAKE. I mean, technology has offered us a hundredfold ways of imitating, copying, lying, feigning and faking stuff. And sometimes we grow too fond of it that we depend on these preoccupations of the human brain. In short, we tend to fake. Or atleast I do.

Well, when i say FAKING, I'M NOT SAYING THAT I'M TRYING TO BE SOMEONE WHO I REALLY AM NOT. This is a quite different and more sensitive issue to touch.
And i am Charonimous. I don't fake my being.
With that issue cleared, let us move on to the purpose of this writing - to cry my heart out. The past few days have been a rollercoaster ride of feelings i couldnt easily show. And considering the fact that people confine me to only one type of emotion, i struggle. As corny as it sounds, the realization i had the earlier months still bog down my feelings. Though i constantly am able to go back to my normal self (or normal for the people around me) it still pierces my heart to hear, see and feel things i honestly don't want to encounter anymore. i know i am being more murky than specific in this writing, well that's because i am actually happy and contented now with the way things go round. but still i can't help to put into writing my emotions.
well the problem with me is that i want to have an outlet, but now that i have found one, seems that my brain dries up and runs out of things to let out. Maybe this itself is a manifestation that i have been faking things for quite a long time that being honest to even myself is becoming a hard toil. woo.
but it is EASIER TO FAKE your feelings THAN TO FIND YOURSELF DETAILING EVERYTHING AND RISK BEING MISINTERPRETED.
woo.again.
But i do not completely fake, i guess so. I just hide things that i know won't really matter to people around me, i discreetly mend my own wounds. I weigh things that may impact on people i care for - a lot.
And actually am thE charonimous invented by my parents. I :), i :(, i get :/ but i :D a lot. and that is me.
well, maybe i wasnt faking after all. maybe i was just rationalizing my actions, stumbling into finding the brighter light.
maybe i was just faking faking it.
:P
p.s.
"Which is better? Faking being real or Being real, unjustly?"
or do i even make sense.
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Little CHILDREN with blue cords.

Posted by charonimous
we are little children with blue id cords.




God said:



"Einsteins, you're getting ahead of where you all should be. Tsktsk. Go to your room and be children!"

poof! children came frolicking at the school oval like gremlims showered with water, frogs caressed by the rain. Children racing for a lollipop like it was the last lollipop on earth.



well you can never be too young, nor too old. And we einsteins do believe that. and totally played the part. and totally got into it.
totally.

we are children.see:







we frolick in the grassy sea and hunt for worms!we chase frogs and keep them in our pockets!we fight over the games we play and over fighting over. we live. we laugh. we have fun.






in short, we don't just live maturely, we act immaturely but with all the maturity we can incorporate!haha.gets?we simply lived the life kanina. we played games, we laughed and laughed harder. we later on would cry knowing we can't laugh as hard as this sooner or later.haaay.






basta, today was such a day i sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo love. hahahaha.






im happy. they are happy. we all are happy. sana happiness is not temporary. sana.














p.s.


We are little children with blue cords. and i want my mommy!!!






:):):)
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Turning evil

Posted by charonimous



Lately, i found myself ranting doing things i usually won't do, or do things i usually do in a differen intensity. So now i'm starting to think..








about turning evil.








i'm not saying i'm miss goody-goody, what i'm trying to say is that i used to not do things that i'm doing today.I can't clearly lay my grounds on this issue but i can feel it. I don't know. Nonetheless, i will still try to save humanity and trees at the same time, while trying to keep zits from over-populating on my forehead.





and maybe, just maybe..







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My First Boyfriend.

Posted by charonimous
It was love at first sight.
The looks, the feel, the features...everything! He had everything that i was looking for in a life-long partner. The sleek design, the inviting color...yes!I've finally found my partner in life. Everyone deserves to love and be loved right? And my lover and love, came in the instant i was looking for one.
I need to have him. I WANT HIM.
and as a matter of fact, seducing him was a no-sweat toil. I got him as easy. With a couple of bucks...he was mine..all mine!!Buwhahaha!!Wrapping him tight around my fingers for the first time felt good. Slowly running my fingers across his body exhilirated me. Touching every inch of him was heaven for me. Oh gosh, euphoria was all over me.
I never imagined that love felt like this. I was too young back then for that kind of sensation but i proved to my whimpering emotions that i have grown. I was already a lady, and he was my man. Together, we are one.(rhyming?!haha.)Who was i to know what's right?What's wrong?How to deal with a love so strong?? Nonetheless, i liked the feeling and i never wanted to shoo it away. NO, i'm gonna stay in heaven as long as i want to. Stay as long as forever with him.
And that was what i did.
Day and night, we were together. Inseparable as the smile in an innocent child. I enjoyed his company, and i know he too enjoys mine. He was loyal, faithful. He did everything i ever wanted him to do, with no complains, just wholehearted service for his adored lady - ME!
He was my lover, my love but also my friend. He was there for me when i needed him. And when i cry tears that silently crashed into my secretive pillows, he was there. Not to stop me from crying, but to just have my company.
He was everything i could ever ask for.
Then one day, something unexpected happend. It was his misfortune and i wasnt able to help in time! He bled, got wounded, but he got hurt a lot to realize that i was not there when he needed me. I mean...i was there!I was!..but..but..i was too late. He already fell and i wasnt able to wrap him into my caring arms. It was my time to repay him, but i utterly dissapointed him.
Starting that day we went separate ways. He would no longer do what i wished him to do. No matter how i beg, got down on my knees, kissed his feet. NO! He was hard on me. And i was hard on myself too. The relationship was now a disaster.
Now, i'm trying hard to regain the friendship we once shared. Hope against hope, we can get back and pick up pieces from where we have left them.
Darn you 6288. Wag muna mag-hang!!Argh!!Special feature ka nga ngayon sa blog ko!!
p.s.
Love is as complex as spreading peanut butter on your tasty bread, you try to even out everything. Well, you simply can't.
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masaya!

Posted by charonimous
masaya ako ngayon dahil sayo!:)
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What's in a name?!

Posted by charonimous

1.Real Name:
Charo Marie Villegas Musni

2. YOUR GANGSTA NAME:(first four letters of your name, pluszzie)
Charzzie (how come it sounds sweet?!)

3. YOUR DETECTIVE NAME:(fav color and fav animal)
Green Frog (err..not that detective-ish.)

4. YOUR SOAP OPERA NAME:(middle name, and current street)
Villegas Panal (what?!)

5. YOUR STAR WARS NAME:(the first 3 letters of your last name,first 2 letters of your first name,first 3 letters of mom's name)
Muschcor ( fear me?)

6. SUPERHERO NAME:(2nd favorite color, favorite drink)
Orange softdrink to the rescue!!

7. IRAQI NAME:(2nd letter of your first name, 3rdletter of your last name, any letter ofyour middle name, 2nd letter of yourmoms middle name, 3rd letter of yourdads middle name, 1st letter of asiblings first name, last letter of yourmoms first name)
Siaajn (How do you pronounce this?)

8. MONUMENT NAME:(fathers or mothers middle name)
Caquilala (not bad!)

9. GOTH NAME:(3rd favorite color, and the name of oneyour pets)
Pink Plush! (ang kyuuut!)

10. SCREEN NAME:(any of your TVs brand and your mom'smiddle name
Panasonic Caquilala (action star?!?!)
hahaha.
Now you ask..
WHAT'S IN A NAME??
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I don't have any regrets in the Suicide area moment.

Posted by charonimous
And no. I did never plan of take my own life. In fact, the suicide area is a bonding place for Einsteins, a place to cultivate the purpose of our lives and laugh till we cry our hearts out, and not a place to end our chaotic lives!Who will even be stupid enough to jump off such a high? point,haha! And actually, that was what happened - happiness till we cried our hearts out.! that and some other juicy moments!!
ehem!allow me!!
Dear ate charo,
Today, most of our subject teachers were not around to attend the wake of a former department head of our school.
Which means..........UBE!! Or ultimate bonding experience for long!!haha!
And that was what we did!!We started to chat, shout, crack jokes, laugh at silly jokes and do much much more soon to grauate students should indulge in. But then again, being very very active and thrill seekers as we are, we weren't contented in sitting inside the room and continuing the inhaling of the scent of brainy students, (hehe) we went outside the windows where the hidden and usually overlooked magical territory of the suicide area exists.
As to why it was called suicide area, i doubt, when even the fact of getting crushed if you fall is next to GMA growing another centimeter tall.haha.
anyway, so there we sat not minding the time-tested sitcky bubble gums that cushioned our indian sits.
"Hoy may nagpipicture!!May fans!!"
this announcement rang into the ears of everyone in the suicide area. At that time, some of us were simply soundtripping (jane and boo), sight-seeing (others), sharing funny stories(me, ton, sieve, sal, nulz), and pranking lower years passing ny beneath us ( i don;t know who these people are.haha)
anyhow, so near the triangle at the back of the FC building, a chubby "disconfugured woman" was taking a picture of US with a digicam. It was an automatic response to strike a pose and smile!So did several of my friends! A second later i heard someone say..
" Hoy matalikod kita! Baka iusip kita!"
Voila! I realized that all of those i am talking to were facing their backs and i was left posing in front of the camera!!shucks!!
haha. i never made mention of the fact that staying at the suicide area was prohibited because obviously it is dangerous and though we really won't die, we could still have catered to fractures and brain damages?? Including dirty uniforms. Ewe.
NOW WHY AM I SO WORRIED??Well, we were slow paced in realizing that the one taking the pictures was the mother of a sophy who happened to be pranked by one of my classmates. haha. dakulaun na usipunun pa!yak! haha.we never got to the realization until we found ourselves being scolded by the guard to get inside the room, since, as he said, we weren't having any chair- shortage inside. haha. he has a point. and oh yah, the guard really went to zb1 to shout at us. aaah..kakatouch the effort!!
friend: " CHARONIMOUS, NAGPOSE KA?"
aq: " Oo, BAKIT??"
F: "HALA KA!"
AQ: "BAKIT?!
F: "BAKA MAGUIDANCE KA!"
and the world stopped.
p.s.
" If ever i will be sent into the guidance..HELP ME!"
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Boring. Wag na basahin.

Posted by charonimous
Dahil isang hindi maipaliwanag na damdamin ang nangingibabaw sakin, hindi ako gaano inspired magsulat, lalo na sa ingles.
Sa totoo lang, masaya ang araw na to. Puro tawanan, kalokohan, tambayan, ngiti - Tulad ng nakasanayang araw sa zb 1, na puno talaga mga bangag na nilalang. Pero ngayon..
...nakakaiyak.
Dapat ang title nito ay part "realizations sequel" pero ayaw kong umiyak ng wala sa oras at yuck. hindi bagay sa isang kagaya ko ang lumuha. kahit minsan kailangan na talaga. at tsaka, walang maniniwala kung iiyak ako. tatawa lang sila at iisiping joke yun.haha.!
ganyan lang talaga.
Kung tutuusin, kasalanan ko din naman kung bakit ganyan ang trato sakin ng mga tao. ako ang nagpakita na ganun ako. kaya nasanay sila. normal lang yun. haha.
dapat hindi ako magsusulat ng tungkol sa gantong topic, pero so what?!for once di ko na kaya and i need an outlet. nge, ingles na tuloy.haha.
basta. di ko alam! ganito ba pag nagiging senior na?! naoopen ang fourth "sensitive eye" kadiri, san naman kaya mahahanap yun.haha.hamu, next time magpopost ako tungkol sa possible na positions ng fourth sensitive eye!!haha.
naalala ko nung sinabihan ako ng someone habang nakikinig sa sad story ng isang klasmeyt.
" Si charo, di naman yan maiiyak!"
haha.So di ako umiyak!Madali lang naman pigilin!!haha.naexercise pa yung eyes ko!oh diba?!may benefits to!!haha. pero im not against this fella, close nga kami. and i like him/her sooooo much. mahal ko tong taong to.kung tao kami tlaga.haha.
actually, di ko na mabilang ang gantong mga incidents.haha.funny pero di ko to napansin dati. kasi masaya naman talaga ako sa buhay ko,kahit hindi ako si ate charo ng mmk!haha. masaya naman talaga maging masaya diba??weeeeeeee.nakakapabata pa.
tapos yun. dami pang discouragements sa buhay, nakakainis. hay. i'm staying as positive as i can pero may utot ng utot ng negativity!ang baho tuloooooy!!haha.
ang haba na pala nito.haha.kung di pa ako sawayin ni mama. ang saya. nakatalikod ako. buti di niya makikita mata ko.di nia makikita ang yun na yun.hahahaha.
goodnight na.may longtest pa sa calculus.
nga pala, sa tingin niya seryoso to?
this is all a BIG JOKE!!
GOTCHA!!
HAHAHAHA.
IM HAPPY.
:)
P.S.
minsan gusto ko maging luha. para di kwestyunin kung bakit tumutulo.kakapagod kasi mag-isip ng rason.haha.
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Frozen memories.

Posted by charonimous





Maybe the only thing that i learned to love so much about this world is that we can preserve memories we fear we may lose as the clock ticks. I fear i may forget, and be forgotten as well. Ehr, i gues everyone doesn't want to feel that way. The pain of parting and traversing a different path from others you want to go with is a thousand fold, But we can't help it. Everything changes.
*more to come*
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Perfect Timing.

Posted by charonimous

Everything will come in its proper time.


But isn't everything about perfect timing too?

So, you ain't gonna wait for the proper time.

You have to prepare for the PERFECT TIMING.




EVERYTHING, and when i say everything, i mean everything needs perfect timing - kasama jan ang utot.



What i mean is, WAG NA WAG KANG UUTOT (ESP KUNG YUNG MAY SOUND) HABANG NANGANGARAL ANG IYONG MAGULANG!!


haha.true.



why? First of all, you'll just ruin the solemnity of the preach. Second of all, you won't be able to internalize the message of the preach cause you're getting preoccupied with the thought of predicting what kind of smell will linger.haha.third of all, the serious mode will turn into circus mode. You know what im saying.


But perfect timing isnt just about knowing when to and when not to fart. It's also about using everything around you to come up with a step that perfectly matches the situation. Let me state an example:
When i say timing is ruined:

Notice how the two pityful creatures at the picture struggled to free themselves from the shameful pose? But what could they do? Unperfect timing of the photographer and unperfect poses add up to produce a horrific tale.haha. but we still can;t deny the fact that the gurl is cute.rawr.

(the victims of these photos have not yet been identified.please inform me if you already have gotten info about these two notorious lame posers!)

Now, take a look at this:



Intro: Today is the birthday of our beloved adviser so we threw a surprise party for her. Our plan was, when she is on her way up the stairs, we have to hastily position ourselves in the formation above and flash the cards, AT THE PROPER TIME.


Imagine if we did not have the proper timing at all.wah.we might have screwed the whole thing up and not be able to surprise ma'am at all. haha. pityful. See how we strategically arranged ourselves in the quad and perfectly aligned the letters?!haha!Bravo!!Very talented talaga tayo!!hahah.


see what i mean?



haha.that's all folks.


i'm turning into a sleepy-head-lazy-freak.:)






p.s.
There is never enough time to do everything, but there is always enough time to do the most important thing.

-Brian Tracy
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Happiness, anyone?

Posted by charonimous


We all know what happiness is. And i'll bet my life in saying, everyone wants happiness. I mean, who doesn' t want to be happy? But it's such a downer to know that people want happiness but many choose to take the wrong way to it.


First of all:



People often move heaven and earth just to find happiness, not knowing that happiness is the journey itself! I mean, human beings are funny. They try every means to find happiness. They take drugs just to know the experience of being high. They take in these dangerous drugs just to travel in the world of euphoric deeds. Then after the happiness, the feeling of high, the visit to the world of nirvana, comes the dead end of the joyride. Health compensates for whatever these drugs gave them. Now they are to say happiness is only temporary. See the thinking of these people?


Others, however, choose the less damaging but equally pathetic path to tracing happiness. The companionship of material and such mundane things engulf them. Today this is in, so they need to have that thing to be in! "I need a cellphone to be happy, an i-pod, mp3," whatever. The world isn't about these things, much more is happiness. haaay. People, happiness is a feeling, a choice, it doesn't come from things around you, but within you.


Humans, have really funny way of defining and describing happines. Have you felt it? Have you seen it? Have you come face to face with it? Have you kissed its beauty?


I have.


Wait a minute. This is supposed to be a HAPPY post. ok Refresh!!!hehe. But anyhow, i needed to show you how pathetic and frivolous people (like me) can be in their desperate search for happiness. Now for the happy part. drum roll please......



Happiness, as i've said earlier, is a personal and conscious choice. It is your choice to be happy or to mourn for the silliest thing on earth. It's up to you if you want to smile at beggars or grumble about their shady state in life. See what i mean? You are what you radiate. As for me, i do not need drugs, nor any material thing to be happy. Ok so maybe there are several material things that paint a smile on my face, but still, you can't erase the fact that my happiness can be achieved through even the most stupid thing in my everyday life.


A simple joke, a friend, a gesture, a wink, a smile can make a magnitude of 10000000000000 millionents (such exists?) of happiness can ooz my personality.haha!i remember my mom saying, "pasalamat ka mababaw ang kaligayahan natin, hindi malalim!"


such a simple statement, such an overflowing thought of truth.



I am happy. I got together with my friends again. I have just eaten my favorite chocolate. I wrote a sensible and happy entry.



What more could i ask for??




*happiness*



p.s.

"Smile, someone needs that today!"
:)

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realizations.

Posted by charonimous
realizations.
they come.
some easily.
others?
they take time.
and mine came unknowingly but easily.or should i say easily but unknowingly.
have you ever had that feeling of being down for no reason at all?grr.it pisses me off when someone tells me that he feels depressed with no apparent reason and it gives me the wadahekyou'relyingtomepooryouiknowyouare feeling.hmp.but it was a slap to my face to find out that it can happen. it nearly knocked me down realizing that it was happening to me.shucks.end of the world na ba?
anyway, here i was taking the test in advance chemistry with a mind wandering into the 3rd dimension of this oblivious world i subconciously created.i got to the farthest kingdom of my fantasy and void world before it came to me that we had already taken the test in math (pre-calculus and calculus).the result?be my guest.
argh.
i hated the feeling of depression but what i despised the most was not being able to tell why the hell im feeling that stupid way!shucks to the ten millionth power. i was even convinced that i was no longer in the proper line of thinking.
i thought i was going mad.i got paranoid,what if i suddenly felt the urge to eat human flesh?what if malevolence came and seduced me?what if i got the psychotic feeling of murdering ants once more?
OA.
but what IS happening to me?
the realization happened after i stopped questioning and let the silence engulf my being. boom!voila!eureka!there it was, the answer to my quandaries.
i have long been blind to this painful truth in my life. I have been living with this kind of "thing" since the time i decided to live this way. it hurts to realize i have been blind with this issue. but it hurts more to know that i can no longer change the current state of things happening this way.
in this war.
i won and i lost over me.
p.s.
Looks can deceive.
True enough.
But the thought of being deceived deceives more.
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